Wednesday, June 18, 2014

His Promises

I don't talk about my faith much. I don't share my thoughts and opinions on my relationship with Jesus Christ. I can't tell you why I hold these feelings to myself. I think a lot of it has to do with that I don't want to come across holier than thou or judgmental. Because Lord knows, I'm just as much as a sinner as the next girl in line. In case you're wondering, I'm a Christian. I was raised Pentecostal and later attended a Baptist church. I see myself as Baptist.


But what you've may have read is how I feel as if I live a very blessed life. God and blessings are mentioned throughout these blog pages from time to time. But blessed isn't really the right word. Simply put, I'm in complete amazement of how much God has given my family without us truly giving all that much to Him. We don't attend church on a regular basis. I completely dropped the ball in regards to a Bible study I started. Life takes over and going to church and reading the word is pushed to the side.

Since moving to Texas 18 months ago, I've found myself praying more. Talking to God more. How did the move create this new found need for prayer and talk? I think it's due to the fact that I spend the majority of my days alone with Connor. For a while, I didn't have much of a support system here and I knew that if I opened my heart, God would take control and allow me to see what good could come from a move that wasn't my idea. 

I'm the type of person who needs to know what's next for me/my family/life. I am a planner. I obsess over the fine details and having things put into place. However, my time spent praying and laying it all out for God during our many conversations, has taught me a very valuable lesson: My plans are a distant second to what God has in store for myself and my family. While I've learned this lesson time and time again, it doesn't mean I've stopped trying to plan. That's just who I am.

As a family, we have a lot going on right now. Decisions to be made. A life to live to the fullest. God has shown me a path to what my family wants and what we have been praying for. And with any path, there are twists and turns, bumps and obstacles along the way. Along the way, I know that God keeps His promises. He keeps His part of the bargain. His plan is what will be fulfilled. Within His hands our happiness lies. 

Luke 1:45: Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!

8 comments:

  1. I experienced the same thoughts/feelings when we moved to LA. There were times when I felt so alone, and the only place I could turn (aside from S, of course) was to God. Since our relocation we've really tried to focus on prayer as a family, at meals as well as at bedtime. And, as much as it can be painful, we try to make it to church every Sunday. We are blessed beyond words, and our gratitude expressed seems to be subpar at times.

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    1. I've started the the 30 day K Love Challenge... you only listen to K Love for 30 days. I'm hoping in doing so, I can find a sense of calm when things around me have gone straight to shit.

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  2. I'm a planner, too. It's hard to let go sometimes and see God take over with His plans. Thanks for sharing a little of your faith side with us!

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    1. I just need to remind myself that I'm living God's plan RIGHT NOW. So wherever we are in our journey, I know that I have Him guiding me/us along the way.

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  3. I found your blog through Becky at bybmg. I loved this post because can totally relate as I am from Michigan and we moved to South Carolina 7 years ago... it was so hard for me adjusting. Slowly I started to meet some true friends... hang in there and keep going to God- its a special time for that relationship.

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    1. Thank you so much Keri. That's what I've been doing for close to 18 months and I've came a long way for sure. I appreciate you stopping by!

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  4. Checking out your blog, and a new follower, from Throwback Thursday Link up. I live in a place where I have more alone time then before. I have definitely been closer to God through this time, spending more time in prayer. I am also a planner, so I am glad God has every detail in control. I appreciate you sharing this, as it is really encouraging. I love the fact that I can relate to your post. :)

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    1. It took so much for me to give up my planning ways and just let Him do what he does best: take care of me! I pray more than every before. Maybe it's something about being a Mom. I don't know but I am certain He is the reason I'm in this place at this exact time.

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