Friday, November 16, 2012

I'm One of Those...

People. Moms. First time parents. Call it what you will. Regardless, I am one of those people that made profound statements of what I was and wasn't going to do as a parent.

And then I had a baby. And plans/ideas changed. Went out the window. Never even attempted.

I had planned to breastfeed. Well, after 28 hours of labor and a c-section that I wasn't crazy about, the idea of being the sole feeder for Connor made my head spin. All I could think about is how I would be the only one to feed him and I wouldn't be able to rest and recover. I know this sounds selfish, trust me, I know it does but I just didn't have the energy. I know I could have pumped and James could have fed him but even this didn't make me feel better about breastfeeding. 2 1/2 weeks later, I am still recovering from my c-section and I am totally content and okay with how Connor is fed. If anything, I'm glad we went ahead and fed him formula (soy) because he eats so much. I have often wondered if I would have produced enough. Regardless of how he is fed, he is healthy and gaining weight beautifully. He is almost 8 lbs, which is a big increase from the 7 lbs he was at on his first check-up.

I had made the comment multiple times that Connor was not going to use/take a pacifier. When I received them as gifts, I returned them. When he was brought back from an exam and his circumcision and had a paci in his mouth, I made the nurse remove it and toss it. I didn't want him to be dependent on a paci and I didn't want it be something I had to break him of. Enter the little Mister who likes to suck and self-soothe. He uses a paci after he eats from time to time - he has a bad acid reflux problem, one that had resulted in projectile vomit hitting me squarely in the face on occasion - to help settle his stomach and he sometimes wants it when is he sleepy. He never has it in his mouth for more than 10-15 minutes. Often times, you can offer it to him and he spits it right back out.

Connor is fed soy formula. He uses a pacifier. None of these makes me a bad mom, less of a parent. If anything, I'm doing what is best for Connor. What works for me, him and our family. James hasn't once mentioned my failed declarations and neither has my friends and family. The goal is to have a happy baby. We have one. He is damn near perfect actually. He doesn't fuss much and he is a good eater and sleeper. He does let off some awful gas and is a bit of a happy spitter but overall our son is amazing!


  1. Good for you for realizing and accepting so early on that you have to do what works for you and that it's okay to back peddle on things you swore you'd be committed to.

    I didn't give Elena a paci until 2 weeks old and now here she is, at 18 months old and she still sleeps with a paci. And guess what...I'm fine with it! lol

    She's also watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, as we speak. I swore, NO TV until 2. Ha. I can laugh at myself now.

    Whatever works is my new motto :) What a cutie he is!

  2. After trying a few different formulas, we finally ended up putting our daughter on Soy. Best decision ever. I'm am A-OK with no breastfeeding. Also didn't want a pacifier and she really didn't take one at first. She started taking it when she began teething, though. We said no cartoons. Not only does she watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, she has a stuffed Mickey. We all make changes to our 'plan' as we learn. It's just the way it is.

  3. Yes breastfeeding/pumping after a Csection is very hard but it's something I wanted to do and I'm glad I did but I don't blame you one bit for not doing it because it was definitely rough those first few weeks. That's the thing about parenthood and that a lot of times your well intentioned plans fly out the window once the kid is here.

  4. Good for you! Don't listen to anyone else other than that sweet little boy of yours. Its all about what works for you guys.


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