Monday, October 8, 2012

Rainbows = AWOL

Throughout my entire pregnancy, I've had it so easy. Every one tells me so and honestly, I have felt great. I haven't ballooned up and I can still see my toes. I look good (most days). I have no issues during my check-ups and Connor is growing great. All the required tests you undergo during pregnancy have came back in our favor. Hands down, I've been beyond lucky during my pregnancy. You could almost say I was made to have babies!

But then I lose my rainbows. Like this morning. My entire body is sore and I am exhausted. I can't sleep at night. I had the best 10.5 hours of sleep Friday night and then Saturday and last night sucked. Badly. I don't know why I can't sleep. It's like the more relaxed I am during the day, the worse my night's sleep is.

If you know me, really know me, you know I don't get stressed or worked up. I'm the most go with the flow person you will ever meet. It drives James nuts. However, from time to time, I get a bit anxious or peeved. After all, I am human. My current aggravation is that 2 acquaintances, one due 10/23 and one due 10/25, already know when they are going to be meeting their little ones. Both have their c-sections scheduled due to one reason or another. I tell myself, be happy that you don't have the need to have a scheduled c-section. But if I'm being honest, I would do, give and say anything (not in a psycho way, I'm not there yet) to know when we will get to meet Connor.

I feel like the last sentence makes me look like an ass. One who isn't shitting rainbows today. I am grateful for my wonderful pregnancy and how easy it's been. I just want to meet our son. I want to hold him in my arms and share him with our friends, family and the entire world.

Don't give up on me just yet. Come back tomorrow, I promise this blog with be covered in happiness and rainbow colored sass. 


  1. Exact date or not, every momma-to-be gets there I think. I definitely remember how frustrated I was! Any day now - you got this!

  2. Have you talked about an induction date in case Connor doesn't want to come out on his own? Hopefully you won't need that but at least then you'll have a definite end date and potential birthday. I know once we had our date setup (which ended up being Hunters birthday) I felt a lot calmer.

    1. I mentioned on my appt. last week. I just said what happens if he doesn't come on his own. Our dr. said then we would discuss induction. I have 3 more appointments scheduled so we shall see. I'm just being a bit of a baby over the whole thing. And usually, I'm not so damn crabby. I'm just a bit tired.


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